Saturday, August 30, 2008

early thirty

So last night I was home visiting and my aunt and uncle and cousins stopped by.  After talking to them my uncle invited me to join them on their bike ride this morning... the only stipulation was that they were leaving at 6:15 to go on the ride.  My aunt had to watch her niece at 8:15, so we had to get the ride in before then.  I accepted the offer and was excited to get a good workout done early in the day, although my body wasn't too thrilled about my decision come 5:15 this morning when my alarm went off.  Regardless, I jumped up out of bed, had a cup of tea, got changed and drove to auburn to pickup my bike.  I rode over to their house and was ready to go at 6:15.  They were running a little late, so it gave me 15 more minutes to wake up.  

We had an awesome ride... just over 2 hours, about 30 miles.  My aunt was riding to hopkinton to watch her niece, so my uncle and i rode out with her just over the half way mark and then rode back.  We started in auburn, then proceeded through millbury, sutton, and grafton, coming just short of upton.  Some of the roads were a little hilly- old common road can be a little tricky when you have pedaled 25 miles already, but i enjoy riding up hills, so it was challenging, but fun.

The only thing not great about the ride is that now it is noon time and i am ready for a nap. I am hoping that some lunch we rejuvenate me, or at least give me a little kick of energy so I can go do some errands.  I had an ems gift card from one of my students from last school year that i want to use.  I am still using my nalgene bottle and want to go there to replace it with an aluminum bottle so I am not drinking in any toxins while I chug my water daily.   While out shopping I may stop at Dick's too, Caitlyn recommends that I get a stability ball to help with preventing any future injuries... it sounds like a good idea, so I want to investigate and possibly buy one of them.

Oh one more thing that I wanted to write.  At the gym there are random quotes posted on the walls and one of them caught my eye, "Motivation is what gets you started.  Habit is what keeps you going."  I see it so many times there and I think about it more and more.  The more you want to make something happen, the more you realize you just have to do it.  When you do something frequently enough and make it a part of your normal routine, then it becomes just that, a routine, something expected to happen.  As the school year begins again I hope my routine continues to go well.

Friday, August 29, 2008

big brother with little sister

So this is going to be short and sweet as I am on my way off to school to do some planning and copying things for next week when school begins.

I had a good night last night, my sister, although not so little any more since she's bigger than me, yet I will always be older, slept over my place so we could watch big brother together. It was a double eviction last night, if you watch the show you know what I mean, if not well I am not going to get into it right now. Anyways, a good night, it's nice that she and I get along well now and can hang out.

I told you this was short and sweet, I really have to leave now and head to school. Maybe if anything exciting goes on I will post later... two in one day? Wow, now that would be a first.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

wild turkeys

So it's been two weeks... my goal was to write daily, I have a plethora of excuses as to why I haven't, but that's all they are excuses and I don't like excuses, there's no excuse, if you want to do something, you do it. Plain and simple.

I woke up in my new place this morning to something I've never woken up to before... wild turkeys outside my window. At first glance I saw four of them, then after putting on my glasses, I realized there are actually six. I am definitely not living in the country now, in fact I moved from a town to a city; however, the land behind me isn't inhabited, by people at least, so I do have some new wild life neighbors. Last week while driving off somewhere I had to stop and let two deer cross the road that leads into the complex. It's kind of cool to be living in a city (not a huge city, but technically a city nonetheless) and still have some neat stuff in nature.

Back to what's been going on in the past two weeks... first things first, and most important... my brother was FINALLY discharged from boston medical center after way too long of a stay there this summer. He had two surgeries last week, having his gall bladder out in order to cure the pancreatits, and then had the reversal surgery done from his initial surgery in january in order to remove the ostemy bag and reattach his small intestine. The surgery went well, although he hadn't eaten for like 3 weeks and when they reintroduced food to him a short time later he threw it allllll up, setting him back a little and definitely not helping regain his strength. He was down to 98 lbs when the doctors realized that this guy need nourishment, the ivs aren't enough. A whole nutrition team was sent in hours later and it was pretty amazing what they do. Based on his numbers in his blood they put together a whole bag of nutrition for him to go through the TPN line. He had a 39 cm tube that was put in through his arm and would deposit the "food" just about his heart. It changed daily what he received... they could determine how much potassium, calcium, etc. he needed and would make a daily batch especially for him. It was great because after a day or so on this he was able to eat again and then was finally getting the couple thousand calories he needed to actually have some strength. So now he's at home, just resting and trying to regain that strength still. I sincerely hope that that was the end of his hospital stays and he can now get on with his life that has been put on hold for two years since graduating from college.

School starts next week. No I am not a student, I am a teacher and yes teachers, like students also don't look forward to the end of summer. Don't get me wrong, I love my students dearly; however, they're just something about summer ( even though I teach summer school) that is so nice. It's great for example that right now I am still sitting in my pajamas at 8:30 in the morning. Next week at this time I will have already been up for a couple hours, showered, changed, and will probably be teaching a Fundations lesson. Even though I am technically not "back to school" I've been going back there everyday this week, just to get my room ready. It's gross how much dust accumulates over the summer and how long it takes to reorganize things that in June I just decided to throw in a bin and deal with in August... well yeah that's what I'm dealing with now.

After school I will be going to the gym to hopefully run on the treadmill. I got new running shoes yesterday. I was running in the Asics 2130 model; however, I ran in two pair of them and seemed to have not had the best of experiences with them. While some people have said it's probably not the shoes, I definitely can be mental at times and decided to go back to my old faithful brand of nikes. In high school I ran in the triax, then went to air max triax of different sorts, and even ran in a pair of shox in college. My trusty shoe adviser told me to go for the air triax structure... I overpronate so this shoe has the support I need, not as much as the asics, but they are comfortable and I'm hoping that a new shoe will alleviate the shin splint/ knee painish thing that has surfaced over the past week and a half or so.

Tonight is also a big brother night. I am the oldest in my family, my brother is younger, but I am talking about the television show. I am not a huge tv junkie; however, my sister and I get hooked on some bad "reality" shows. So tonight will be a big brother viewing, which I am sadly excited for. Part of it though is that it's nice to be able to spend time with her and because she's not working tomorrow, she may spend the night here. Well I should actually start the day that I began writing about now... hopefully I can keep up with the blogging from now on. No excuses.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

done with summer school!!

So now that it is August 14th, I am finally on summer vacation, or whatever is left of it! Today was also the day that Matt went in for surgery, well two in one. He had his gall bladder out and also had the reversal done from his surgery in Jan. He no longer has an ostemy bag, so hopefully the gall bladder being removed will heal his pancreatitis so he can finally be on the road to recovery after being sick for almost 2 years.

My sofa and table and chairs are being delivered tomorrow! I am excited to get some furniture into my new place and move in there this weekend. Hopefully I can be unpacking this weekend, then be living at my new place while I trek in and out of school next week to try to get my classroom ready.

Hopefully I can get running more soon, I have been good about keeping in shape, but with so many things going on I feel like I am very run down and have only had the energy to do some cross training and running every other day. Another thing I need to work on is getting more sleep, although I am thinking that will come with my own place. My family is up late and I can't sleep, then I have to be up early... my body is greedy when it comes to sleep and wants at least eight hours, I've been getting less than seven lately which is inadequate for me.

Well that's all for now, I guess another thing I should improve on is my blogging.

Friday, August 8, 2008

it's hard to be positive when things just seem to keep on going wrong

So another day and yet what appears to be another problem. My brother had an mri which revealed that his gall bladder now has to come out too, which was going to be done as an emergency surgery, then the docs decided to do it when they do the reversal surgery in the future; however, neither of these events can take place until the infection that is still growing inside of him clears up. They drained it again today and he's still on meds for it, but it just doesn't seem to want to go away. Since he can't eat once again unfortunately he got put on a feeding tube tonight. I hate how bad things happen to good people, it just doesn't seem fair.

More craziness in the household right now too... I am currently trying to waste time as I anxiously await the arrival of my mom from Italy. She was on vacation with her best friend for two weeks and has been in flight today; however, my sis and I got word from my dad like 2 hrs ago that he was waiting for them at Logan and it seems their flight was diverted from London... due to storms in Boston they sent them to Maine instead. So my mom is now probably sitting in Bangor Airport biting her nails off, I'm sure she wants to get home so bad and it probably upset that she won't be in Boston early enough to visit Matt at the hospital, since visiting hours ended at eight.

As far as my day, I was in Paxton this morning until like 1 meeting with my colleagues and discussing our plan of attack for the upcoming school year. I am definitely excited to finally have a year when we're all working together. I've been teaching for four years now and it has yet to happen because others, well another, was unwilling to cooperate, so it really just made for an isolated classroom which I taught in. Don't get me wrong, I love my room and my kids, but I am thrilled to be able to open the door, switch kids, and really collaborate with our lessons.

After Paxton I was home for lunch and a little cleaning, I really wanted to make the house look nice and clean... I know my mom and dad are going to be physically and mentally exhausted when they finally get home later tonight (or who knows when?) so I don't want them to come home to a mess. Then I had some me time, I went to the gym for my work out, although lately I haven't had my usual desire to bang out a nice long run, instead, my head has been hurting in addition to my right knee, so I've been doing a lot of cross training every other day, and running on the days I don't cross train. Anyways, today I did the elliptical for like 1:20, then some situps and stretching. Sometimes that stretching is the best time, I feel fatigued and my body feels like it's been used and I feel at peace too... a nice feeling to have.

Returning from the gym was a return to reality when I learned about the feeding tube, but I had to continue with things to do, including grocery shopping, dinner making, showering, and packing. Packing up my room here has been strange. I have moved away to college, moved to Spain for a semester, but never moved to a residency of my own, all my own. A new address. My own couch and tv. For the first time I will be leaving here knowing that I can return if I have to, but hoping that I am finally independent and starting a new phase in my life.

Well if anyone is actually reading this, then I hope I don't bore you; however, I find this to be pretty helpful for me right about now... it's nice to reflect on the day and sort of put things in order and in perspective. Despite the many things that seem to be going wrong right now, it does make me grateful for the many things that are going right and for all of the support of others who have been there for my family helping us to get through it all.

Thursday, August 7, 2008

here it goes

So I decided to start blogging... maybe it will help to make sense of all of the things that run through my head throughout the day, it seems that my mental thoughts have reached their maximum capacity, so perhaps this could be a way to sort them all out. My life seems extremely hectic and crazy lately, some of it is good, while others aren't quite so good.

I just got home from week #5 of teaching summer school, which I love doing don't get me wrong, but something about having to be up by 6:30 am over the summer doesn't seem right, oh well only 1 more week to go. I've spent the afternoons driving out to Paxton, not to work on my classroom yet, but to work on making a bookroom which I suckered myself into doing, somehow I can't say no. The school got 900 titles, with 6 books in each title... do the math and you get 5,400 books that I've had to go through, level, label, and shelf.... fun way to spend summer vacation.

On top of school stuff I have also finally decided to make the big move... after four years of living at home after undergrad I am finally leaving the nest. I am so excited to move next week and have a closer commute to work along with an awesome place; however, I didn't realize how much work it takes to pack up a room in a house that I've lived in for the past 22 years of my many clothes, books, and random things to go through.

Also, family issues have taken over lately too. My brother has been sick for two years, had his colon taken out in January and has since had 5 infections... well maybe the same one five times, but I'm not sure. He's been in out of Boston like it's his job, which he hasn't had since graduating college. He's currently in Boston Medical Center and has been there for about a week with pancreatitis now and was recommended to have his gall bladder out too when he goes in for yet another surgery.

Well it's lunch time for me, then some house work to do (mom's been in Italy for 2 weeks, so I've also become the one to cook, clean, do laundry, etc.), followed by some "me time" at the gym, then back here to try to find some boxes so I can do more packing!