Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Finishing off the semester

I told myself I would blog today, but I was busy, yay! Just giving a brief recap... Went and did a solid 1:20 on the elliptical today for a total of 10.98 miles!

I had a fun afternoon at a colleagues house, although I got a little burnt while relaxing by her pool. It was great to catch up with some friends from school though.

Currently I am sitting in class waiting for it to start, I gave my presentation last week, so tonight is easy, breezy, just gotta sit here til 9:00!

Monday, June 28, 2010

things happen for a reason

When you're going through something sometimes you don't realize why it's happening... but then time later reflecting back on it it can be so clear. I'm still in the clouds a bit right now, but there is some clarity coming out of it.

Looking back to the beginning of June I realize now that the reason I didn't get the position I thought was a shoe-in was because if I had quit my job in Paxton and moved closer to the Merrimack area, then I would be quite lonely right now. The main reason I wanted to relocate was to be closer to my bf; however, this weekend things between us (relationship-wise) are over.

I don't plan to reveal it here, but after not hearing from him from a week I knew things were going sour. I gave so much, but he was preoccupied with other things... I don't consider myself to ask much, but in a relationship even just a phone call would be nice. (And I don't mean not talking for a week, then getting a sympathy call on my birthday.)

So the start of being 28 hasn't been the greatest... but who cares, I am actually kind of relieved in a way that we were able to handle it maturely and rationally... while it's not where I pictured myself being a couple of months ago, things change... you can be upset and feel sorry for yourself or you can take advantage of the opportunity and make yourself happy.. and that's what I've been doing!!!

To start the day off right I spent the morning at the gym :) I did 65 minutes on the elliptical... 9.07 miles! Then went to Body Flow class for an hour combo of yoga, tai chi, pilates, and meditation at the end. My mind was wandering during the meditation, but other than that it was great!

As for the rest of the day I have some random errands to run, but then want to read outside... lately I've grown quite fond of the patio that my mom and I built several years ago... so I plan on putting my feet up and getting lost in a book while catching some rays! I don't think it's possible to have a case of the Mondays while you're on summer vacation!

First things first though... time for some food!!!

Sunday, June 27, 2010

listen to your heart

Ok so the recent sadness is frustration with relationship issues... and I'm not going into detail in blogland...

I did however, have a MUCH better day yesterday with my sister! She lives in Somerville, so I went out there yesterday am to spend the day with her! ( I did manage to squeeze in 15 miles on my bike before heading off!) We walked into Davis Square, then took the T into the city :) There's something about walking around among the hustle and bustle of the city on a nice summer day that can really just clear your mind. Plus my sister can be super easy going and the perfect remedy for a bad day!

We walked up and down Newbury Street and went into a bunch of stores. Some things I definitely liked, but really could justify paying some of the prices! YIKES! I could never afford to live there! It was still super fun though. In addition to a necessary Dunkin stop we also went out to lunch. Instead of a fancy restaurant we went to more of a deli/ market type place. It was really cool inside! Lots of fresh organic fruits and veggies! They had a fruit and veggie salad bar, which is what I hit up for my meal while my sis opted for a wrap, which looked really good too! She go the mozzarella, tomato and pesto wrap... even though I'm not a mozzarella fan it looked really good and super fresh! While we ate we chatted, which was much needed... I've been keeping A LOT built up inside of me and it was so nice to just let it out and hear her opinion of it all too. But lunch wasn't all that serious... we also played a fun 1, 2, 3, game, haha! I won't go into the details of that one right now...

After vegging out (haha) we decided we should continue our stroll... we went around the city a bit more before heading back to the T and finally back to Davis. Sometimes I actually think I'd like to live in the city, you can be so much more pedestrian! Just in our little adventure I'd say we walked 4 miles, easy! Although flip flops probably weren't the best shoes to wear, but that's another story.

Getting back to her apartment our cousin Chrissy was home. (She's going to Ecuador in two days for the rest of the summer, so it was good to chat with her!) We hung out while she baked some cookies, then hit up the yard for a little Ladder Ball. This is a fun lawn game, kind of like a corn hole... but a little different. I lost, but for the first time, not bad! She wants to set up a tournament at the end of the summer, which would be super fun! This is the "equipment" for the game... basically you toss the balls on a string at the opposite goal thingy... and you want them to hang off a rung... if they do you get three points for the top, two for the middle, and one for the bottom. First person to 21 points wins... but you have to get exactly 21.

Shortly after that the third roomie, our other cousin, Elaine returned from work and we watched the end of the world cup game... boo USA lost, but still an exciting ending! I'll have to cheer for Spain now, since they're like my second home, I did live there for almost half a year!

All good things must come to an end... and I was tired from a long day, so I came home early yesterday evening, to do more thinking and a little reading.

Despite the recent frustrations, I am happy with the way I am handling it, I've been able to express my feelings and opinions, as for what will happen, I don't know at this point, I've given my thoughts and it's kind of out of my hands now. I really like being in control of things by nature, but I'm learning that some things you can't control, you just have to listen to heart, say how you feel, and then see what happens. Lately I've realized that everything happens for a reason, so whatever happens I'm sure there is an overlying reason for it happening and things will work out for the best. In the meantime, I need to just keep being the best person I can be and enjoy my summer.

And I did this morning! I had a relaxing cup of tea with breakfast and read the paper... although the Sunday crossword is always super hard, maybe that should be another goal of mine, to get like 75% of it done sometime this summer! Anyway, I went to the gym for a solid workout... still not running, but managed 12.6 miles on the elliptical in 1 hr 30 minutes! (That's a 7:08 pace, woot woot!)... well I've run faster for a half marathon, but still, at least I got a good sweat out and read part of the next series I've started bye Sophie Kinsella... the Shopaholic series... not my stereotypical reading, but wicked easy and fun. I told my sister yesterday the main character totally reminds me of her! She justifies buying things on sale because it's like she's making money... my sis does the same thing.
I bought this the other day at Barnes and Noble... then got the remaining books at the library since I read the book in about 3 hours and didn't feel like spending more money...

Time to get a few things done to finish off the weekend! I have to go fill out some paper work so I can attend a conference mid July that my district is actually paying for me to go to, score! Perhaps some food shopping may be in order too since I haven't done that this week! Happy Sunday all!

Friday, June 25, 2010

officially a 28 year old

Today started off well... 70 minutes on the elliptical followed by body flow class and it's a beautiful sun shining day! I am loving the weather; however, this evening even though the weather is still gorgeous all I can think about is "It's my party and I'll cry if I want to... except I changed the lyrics..."It's my birthday and I'll cry if I want to."

Sorry to end on a sad note on my "special" day... but it's the truth and that's all I can say about that for now.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

don't change

So many times in our lives we think about changing and making ourselves better, but I got some good advice the other day and the two words to sum it up are Don't Change.

Now that doesn't mean I don't try to make improvements upon myself on a daily basis, but deep down inside I am the person I was born to be and it is my goal to live up to that potential and strive to do my best. I will not change for anyone and if someone doesn't like me for who I am, then that's not my fault, sorry.

Maybe that sounded a little negative there, but I don't intend it to be. While at times I know I have my own flaws... maybe I take the easy route doing some things, I've been known to fight a few (hundred) times with my siblings, but hey I'm only human! The point of this realization that I'm having is I am happpy and proud of who I am and want to continue to try to do and be my best, no matter what anyone else says or does.

In other news, I finished the book I was talking about yesterday- You Had Me at Goodbye... wicked good ending by the way! But I won't give it away. I was kind of surprised after I finished reading the book to read the back/spine of the book and realize that techinically this is a "Christian Fiction" book. Typically I don't go for religiousy books.. not that I am anti-religion, I go to church pretty much every Sunday, but I when I read a novel I don't (or at least thought I didn't) want to be preached at by an author... turns out I am WRONG! There actually were some really good points that have resonated with me while reading this, albeit a cheesy chick lit book.

There were actually a couple of quotes from the bible in this book, which really can relate to my life right now. "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all they ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."

I guess I just have to have faith... some things happen for a reason even if they aren't apparent at the time... so I plan to keep doing what I'm doing and not change!

By the way, I am in a very good mood right now! Even though I couldn't run this am, I did a solid 65 minutes on the elliptical (9.3 miles!) and then did an hour of a yoga/pilates/tai chi fun!

Now I need to get my hands on the other two booksin Tracey Bateman's series, I love reading for fun! :)

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Checking off the Tuesday To-Do List

I am a to-do list girl. I like to have a list of things to get done, just for the satisfaction of being able to cross off the things on the list!
Today's to-do list consisted of:
-doing laundry
-folding laundry
-gym workout
-work on/ finish final paper for reading course
-exchange something at the mall

I am proud to say that it's not quite dinner time and I have accomplished all things on the list... check them all off!

Unfortunately my list didn't contain running on it, I think that has to remain on hold as my knee was sore after the mile I ran on it yesterday... boooo. But I'm staying positive and happy that I can walk around, elliptical, and bike without it hurting me!

I am pretty sure that I am going to do a yoga class tomorrow am, as long as I sleep well tonight and I'm able to drag my butt out of bed!

On a side note I heard one of my favorite songs today at the gym while working out... it's been in my head all day "Don't stop believing..."

On another side note, with my extra free time I am doing something that I told myself I wanted to do more of: READ!! for fun that is... randomly my mom needed to go the library yesterday, so I went with her. I was checking out the wall of "new books" and saw one that looked good... yes, I sometimes judge a book by it's cover! It's called "You Had me at Goodbye"... I sat twice with it yesterday and ended up reading 222 pages! I have less than 50 left, so I plan on finishing it tonight. It's a three part series (of which this is the second book, oops!) so I think i'll be reading them out of order.

Time to go get cooking in the kitchen... then hopefully finishing up my book to finish off a good Tuesday! :)

Here's the cover of the book: it's about a 30 year old living in nyc... while I don't live in nyc, I can definitely relate to her on some levels. If you're looking for some good "chick lit" check it out!

Monday, June 21, 2010

First Day of Summer!!

Not only is today the first day of summer, it's also the first day of summer vacation when I am realizing that yes I survived this school year... aka it's a Monday and I was able to force myself to stay in bed until 8 am!

So part of the things I want to do this summer is blog more frequently... so I'm trying to start the day (well, post bfast) by doing that. Although, more honestly, I think the reason that I decided that now would be a good time to blog is because I am working on my final paper for one of my courses and needed a little break (or procrastinate) from doing that!

Another thing that I need/ want to do more of this summer is read! And I mean read for fun, for me, like get lost in a novel, not read my students' stuff or read more ed/ reading text books....any good ideas of books to read over the summer?

As for today, I am loving the sunshine once again. If MA weather were like this year round I don't think I would ever complain about the weather! Although my mom's garden could use a little more water I think, so if I shower does come by the veggies would be grateful!

Also for today, the goal is to get my final paper done for my class... due Wednesday, so tomorrow I can work out the kinks in it and figure out exactly what I'll be doing during my presentation. Another thing on the to-do list is the gym, obviously... my place of relief! I am going to try to run again this week, although my good running pattern is when I run Tuesday, Thursday, Sat, and Sunday... so I'm thinking tomorrow is the big day to try to hit the treadmill... I would hit the pavement, but after a few weeks off from it I don't want it to be too big of a shocker to the knee.

As for the rest of the day, who knows?! I am slightly scared that I really don't have a strict agenda or schedule for the summer... but I'm hoping to fill it up and try some new things. Since I have more time one of the things I want to try to do is cook some new things! I see so many good recipes but don't have time (ok maybe I do, but don't make time) to plan ahead to have the ingredients ready so I could make it.

I also have multiple gift cards (thank you students) that I could use should I feel the need for a little shopping trip this afternoon... some schools still aren't on vaca yet, so maybe the stores won't be as busy? Who knows... in any event I definitely don't have a case of the Mondays today!! HAPPY SUMMER!!!! :)

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Hello Summer Vacation and Last Day of Spring!

Ok, so I have kind of slacked off in the blogging department over the past couple of weeks, although I can justify that... aka I have made up excuses for myself.

First, let's talk about school. The end of the school year seems to always be ridiculously crazyyyyy. There's the usual end of the year assessments to get done, last minute meetings the parents request because they realize that fourth grade is a big step up from third, school business to take care of, and the daunting task of putting away everything that you use to teach with during the year... I have accumulated (bought) so many books over the past 6 years that the idea of storing away my classroom library was looming in my head, although I am happy to report that I successfully moved it all to counters/ window sills around my room and bagged it all up to prevent it from getting super dusty over the's what it looked like before:

That's actually only half of it... there are two more big bookcases full of books that I had to empty out too, major project, but it's done!!

Not only has school been a lot of work, but my knee has caused a lot of extra stress in my head... however, I can proudly say that I managed to cross train daily and I think that tomorrow is the big day to test out a short run! I just was at the gym today and managed to do just over 12 miles on the elliptical in 90 minutes... so my fitness hasn't suffered, unfortunately I just haven't been able to run! Here's hoping that changes tomorrow on the first day of summer!

Other things as of late were the potential of switching jobs... yes I was going to relocate and thought I had landed a third grade job elsewhere (I'll keep that nameless for now)... even met with the superintendent, taught a demo lesson for a panel of teachers, parents, etc. and was in close contact with them, however, due to stupid politics I then got dropped like a bad habit... after not hearing from them for 13 days! I can understand if people change their minds or whatever, but to just all of a sudden not return any of my phone calls or emails, I consider that to be rude and unprofessional.

Now that that complaining is over, let me be a little more positive! I am thrilled to be on summer vacation and won't be teaching this summer, I need a break and it couldn't come at a better time! I have loved the nice weather as of late and hope it keeps up!

Today is Father's Day and I can say I am lucky to have such a great dad. True, at times he can be a little to strict/not realize that I am no longer his little girl, but rather an (almost) 28 year old, but I love him dearly and am happy to spend the day with him today. Also, I'm excited for him as he is going to try to start running again next week and hope he gets back into it! (He was my inspiration to start running and run my first marathon.) I watched him run Boston when I was about 9 years old and told him that someday I am going to run it too... which will hopefully be the case in April 2011!

Happy Father's Day!