Sunday, July 25, 2010

In a rut

I feel like I'm stuck in a rut, I really have no reason to complain, but I don't like having negative feelings, which I think is why I haven't posted all week. But I told myself I would write today, hoping to put a positive spin on things.
It's summer vacation, shouldn't I be beaching it up and enjoying the time off? I think part of me isn't doing so much of this because I really don't have that special someone to share it with... And I think havig so much free time on my hands just makes me think and wonder where and when I will meet this person, because I am pretty sure I am ready for him! Thinking postively- if I just keep doing what I am doing this person will appear, or so I'm told.
I was actually slightly busy this week. I went to Westfield state to a mentoring workshop since a colleague and myself instituted this program in our district. This is a big undertaking and something I'm proud of, but 2 hours of commuting daily just wasn't my thing, glad I don't have to go back next week!
I should be happy that I ran nearly 35 miles this week! I managed to run tuesday, Thursday, Saturday, and Sunday. This weekend was pretty good with 8.7ish yesterday and 10.7ish today, with paces right around 7:30. By no means is this where I want to be, but the fact that I am running is a positive. I don't think I am ready to race yer, but hopefully soon. I really don't k ow what I want to train for though, I kind of feeling like I am just planning my training week by week which feels weird, but I don't really know where I'm headed. I guess that's kind of how I feel with my life right now. What am I doing and where I am heading? I really don't know. I want to know, I want to have direction, I mean I kind of do, I am working on a cags degree to become a reading specialist, but there's more to life than work. I think I feel lost with the other part or parts of my life. Fortunately I am able to work out to kind of escape reality for a while, although these thoughts are waiting for me when I'm done.
Well that was a tangent, but anyways, I do feel good having run nearly 11 miles today, but still feel that something is missing. As for therest of the day, it's an errand and catch up day. My mom is en route to Italy for 2 weeks, so I need to do some things to make sure the house is up and running well. I also have to tutor tomorrow, so I need to prep for that. I may try to take a nap too with the hopes of having a nice rest and waking up feeling invigorated! Happy sunday all!

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